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A Peaceful Sleep

Nothing is left in me
Nothing is there in me
I am just a piece of flesh
I dont know
What is happening with me
Why I am losing everything
Things are leaving on a bad note
I am there figuring out what is wrong
I have lost so much
I have nothing left in me
Broken Friendships
Broken heart
Broken relationships
I dont know
Will anybody accept me
Will my family accept me
Will my friends accept me
Will my world accept me
I am harming myself everyday
I want to stop all this
I try to end all this
I try to run from all this
I know
I was at the fault
It was my mistakes
It was my blunders
It was my immaturity
It was my sin

I have done nothing for my family
I have achieved nothing in life
I have not made my brothers dream come true
I have not made my sister proud of me
I have never been good at anything
I have never did something for them
I have never made my friends happy
I have done nothing for anyone

Thinking all this
I am going no where
I try to write about it
I try to read about it
I am regretting everything

Everyday I don't like to wake up
I don't like to go anywhere
I don't want to read
I don't want to write
I don't want to be in this world
I don't want to face my parents
I don't want to face my sister
I don't want to face my brothers
I don't want to face my friends
Yet I want to be with them
To spend time with them
To talk to them
Nights are my friends
In night I cry to my heart contents
Without any fear of being caught

I thought that nobody will be there with me
I thought that nobody will be there for me
It was foolish of me to think like this

With these thoughts
I am going to find a peaceful sleep
Let me sleep peacefully.

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A Black Pants
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Sitting under a shady tree
With him boundless packed
Selling books and magazines

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Everytime I try
I am unable to interact
With him as he is busy with his other customers

Seeing him
So busy
I change my mind and
Move on to my way

Thinking about him
So deeply
I am not able to concentrate on my work
In my office

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Meeting him and interacting with him
On my way back
I quickly leave my office

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I see him everywhere
Yet can't find him
Searching him for five minutes

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Adjacent to his place
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