Wednesday, 31 May 2017

Let me

Let me enjoy
The beauty of the silent night
Before morning comes

Let me hear
The roar of the sky
Before weather gets fine

Let me feel
The chilly wind over my face
Before wind stops blowing

Let me listen
The voice of my heart
Before others tell me

Let me see
The snowy​ mountains
Before the rays of the sun reach

Let me watch
The best things of the world
Before they get extinct

Let me visit
The most interesting places of the world
Before life gets tough

Let me experience
The view of the sea
Before tide comes in between

Let me travel
The whole world
Before I get old and weak

Let me know
The truth of the life
Before the carriage arrives

Let me think
The best moments spent with you
Before they are gone

Let me remember
The amazing memories made with you
Before connection is lost

Let me write
The importance of you in my life
Before time

Let me tell
The untold stories about me
Before I forget them

Let me share
The unshared secrets with you
Before they are just secrets

Let me change
The way of the thinking
Before the dusky clouds come in view

Let me make
The world a better place to live in
Before world becomes hell

Let me enjoy
The solitude of my life
Before others interfere

Let me save
The innocence
Before maturity creeps in

Let me speak
The feelings of my heart
Before they get locked in my mind forever and ever

Let me bring
The joys of the world
Before sorrows rule the world

Let me learn
The meaning of Life
Before it is taken away by God

Let me live
The awesome gift of Him
Before I am carried away.

Tuesday, 30 May 2017

Meet Me

Meet me my friend
Meet me my good  friend
Once before you go

Meet me my friend
Meet me my good old friend
Once before you go far away

Meet me my friend
For I will miss you
Everyday

Meet me my friend
For I will wait for you
Everyday

Meet me my friend
For I will long to hear from you
Everyday

Meet me my friend
For I can't wait for you
Everyday

Meet me my friend
For I won't make you sad
Anyway

Meet me my friend
For I won't let you break down
Anyway

Meet me my friend
For I won't disturb you
Anyway

Meet me my friend
For I won't let you down
Anyway

Meet me my friend
For you won't be able to meet me again
Everytime

Meet me my friend
For you won't be free to meet me
Everytime

Meet me my friend
For you won't see me
Everytime

Meet me my friend
For you won't be able to hear from me
Everytime

Meet me my friend
For you will not be understood by
Everyone

Meet me my friend
For you won't be able to believe
Everyone

Meet me my friend
For you won't be busy for
Everyone

Meet me my friend
For you won't be able to ignore
Everyone

Meet me my friend
For I will visit
Everyplace

Meet me my friend
For I can see you at
Everyplace

Meet me my friend
For I will make happiness for you at
Everyplace

Meet me my friend
For I will be there for you at
Everyplace

Meet me my friend
Before we apart
Forever and ever

Meet me my friend
Before we step into this
Real world

Meet me my friend
As the days spent
Will never come back

Meet me my friend
Before maturity creeps in
Taking away our innocence

Meet me my friend
Before adulthood creeps in
Taking away our childless

Meet me my friend
Before I get accustomed to
Ignorance

Meet me my friend
Before you go far away
Very far

Meet me my friend
Before end is
Near

But it's okay
For I understand that you are busy
You don't have much time
You don't have enough time
You are going to start a new phase of your life

A new chapter is waiting for you
A new life is waiting for you
A new dawn is waiting for you
A new day is waiting for you

You are going to be my good friend always
You are a gem for me
You are always​ with me in my mind
You are always with me in my prayers

I wish you good for your future
Go and live your dream
Your life

Stay connected
Stay Happy
Wherever you might go
Wherever you might live.


Monday, 29 May 2017

As You Like It

Everything has changed
So dramatically
So drastically

There is nothing left in me
I have lost all hopes
I have lost everything

The dreams which
I had
I have seen

The ambitions which
I had
The aspirations which
I had

I don't see any scope
To live
To live for a better living

I cry and cry
I don't know
Why

I want to cry and cry
The whole day
The reason
I don't know

I don't know
Where I am going
Where I am heading in life

I want to flee
Where
I don't know

I want to run
Where
I don't know

The thought of failing in life
Kills me more
Within

I try to concentrate
I can't
I try to go away far
I can't

I see my life
Breaking into pieces
Infront of me

The very thought of
Doing nothing great
In academics
In any other field
Makes me mad

I know
It was my choice
It was my idea

I have so many
Regrets and Failures
In life

I know
It was my mistake
It was my ignorance
It was my carelessness
It was my rule

I know
Now I can't change anything
I can't do anything about it

I can never be the same
As I was
Before

I know
I can't yet
I can't stop myself from thinking all this

I know
I can't share my feelings with anyone
I don't have anyone
I don't have any friend with whom I can

It was my mistake that
I thought I had my friend
My best friend

But I forgot
Since my childhood days
I never had any best friend
I have no childhood bestie

I always came in between two friends
Unknowingly and
Unintentionally

Whom I thought were my friends
I was so wrong
I was just telling them things
Irrelevant things


It was my mistake
I thought that I can share my feelings
With anyone

It was my mistake
I thought everyone will be with me
Always

It was my mistake
that my biggest fear is
losing people

I have lost
So many people
So many friends

With this
I have become strong
I have tried to live alone and happy

It was my mistake
I was so emotional
So immature to understand life

I am still wondering
How to be mature
Mature enough to handle life

It was my mistake
I overdid everything
I overdid always

It was my mistake
I tried to keep everyone happy and smiling
I tried to keep in touch with everyone


I don't know
Why I am writing this
Why I am doing this

I know after this
I may lose everyone
Forever and ever


I know
I am not the only one
Who goes through all this

I know
With passage of time
Everyone is busy in their own life

I know
All are now grown ups
There is no place left for a person like me

Yet
I will keep trying to
Make everything as it was before
I know it is not possible but
It is not impossible too

You may call me
An attention seeker

You may call me
A sympathy gainer

You may call me
A crying baby

You may call me
An under estimator

You may call me
A child for life

You may call me
A pessimistic

You may call me
An ideal person for life

You may call me
A person lacking emotional stability

You may call me
A runner from problems

You may call me
A misguider

You may call me
A gossiper

You may call me
A messenger

You may call me
A person unable to express

You may call me
A person who will be alone always

You may call me
A loser

You may call me
A complainer

You may call me
A ungrateful person

You may call me
A backstabber

You may call me
An immature person


You may hate me
For writing all this

You may hate me
For not thanking what I have

You may judge me
As You Like It

For it is up to you
How to think
What to think

May be
I was overreacting
May be
I was possessive for whomever I meet
May be
I was exaggerating
May be
I was panicking
May be
I was losing patience
May be
I was overdoing it again
May be
I was responsible for all this.

Yet
I am always there for everyone
Always at
Everyplace
Everytime
Everywhere








Sunday, 28 May 2017

One Day

Today I saw him
Going to his place
With his broken heart

I tried to stop him
He did not stopped
He kept walking

He was wearing a hat red in colour
Face covered with a brown scarf
Only his eyes were visible
A torn suit with a half made bow
A pair of boots stitched from sides

He went moving
He kept going
Without any destination

His face covered with sadness
His brown eyes 
Swollen with tears

I followed him
I followed him to know 
What was wrong

I wanted to know
Where he was going
Where he wanted to go

Following him for quite some time
I thought to go and talk to him
To know more about him

Hardly had I thought to go and meet him
He started crying in agony
He was in great pain

The pain which we all go through
The pain which can't be seen physically
The pain which ruins our life

It was the emotional pain
It was the pain which can't be healed easily
It is more intense than physical wounds

Remembering the lines from
Book The Fault In Our Stars
Pain demands to be felt

I tried to console him
He lay there
Broken shattered into pieces

I asked him
What was wrong
He told me his heart ,his feelings

He was going through all this
From much time
He wanted to run away

He started to run away from this
His life was a hard life
Harder than his lost love

He lost all the treasures of life
He lost everything
In a blink of eye

I told him he is alive
Running away wont help
Face life face challenges
Which was advised by my friend once

He was broken
I told him that it will get healed
With new hopes he should start a new life

He promised to
Give it a fresh start
With new beginnings

Little did I know
He was that same man
Whom I thought to meet him one day

Blessing me
He went from there
Again I missed a chance to meet him.

Yet I was happy
Once again he inspired me
He made me smile.


Saturday, 27 May 2017

A Strange Ragpicker

Sitting on my terrace
At night
Having coffee
In silence

I hear his voice
Everyday
I have been hearing his voice
For more than five years

Everynight
He passes by my house
Singing a song inaudible to me
Having an empty bag on his back

I see him everyday
I patiently wait for him
Seeing him
I feel better

I see him everyday
In a blue shirt
With torn black jeans
Wearing brown sandals

I see him everyday
Having nothing much
Yet everything
With him

Some people call him​ mental
Some people call him abnormal
Nobody knows about him
Nobody wants to know about him

After waiting to see him clearly
Today I saw him
When he stopped near my house
Murmuring some words

I saw his face for the first time
His face has given a long lasting
Impression on me which
I wont forget never

He has a face so thin
Thinner than his thin body
Having four lines
On his forehead

His eyes
Dark brown in colour
Deeper than the Pacific Ocean
Searching something

His black hairs
Longer than usual
Blacker than the darkness
Darker in the night

His long ears
Longer than the wavelength
Ears dying to hear
Soothing words

His long nose
Not longer than
The wide smile
On his thin lips

I see him
Happy always
Happier than
When I last saw him

He sings loud sometimes
When he doesn't see anyone
For this
People call him attention seeker

His aims are high
Higher than the towers
His life is tough
Tougher than climbing mountain

He doesn't sees anything
He doesn't stop
He keeps going
He doesn't listens to anyone

Other people say things to him
Some openly
Some indirectly
Ignoring he keeps moving

Many of them
Criticise him
Yet he doesn't give them attention
Faces criticism like silent night

He inspires me
He encourages me
He motivates me
Without looking at me
Without saying a word to me

He comes daily
With his heavy steps
With his soulful voice
Reaching to me before he reaches

With his coming
I feel blessed
With his going
I feel trapped

He has made me realise
The true meaning of life
Living happily under every situation
Smiling always

People call him poor
Yet he is rich in values
People insult him
Yet he respects them

His way of carrying him
Is a treat to eyes
His carefree attitude
Makes me to let go  negativity

His optimistic approach
Towards life
Makes me wonder
Where I am heading

He enjoys his life
To the fullest
Without spending a penny
He is enjoying life everyday

I see him
Everynight
Lost in his world
Away from this cruel and dominating world

He has secluded himself from the world
To get lost in another  world
Musical world
Getting relaxed by singing

Moving nonstop on foot
Going somewhere
In search of acceptance
I guess
In search of love
I guess
In search of care
I guess

I will meet him the next day
Will have a conversation with him
Will know where he goes everynight
Will ask him the route to happiness
Will get to know him better.


A New Life

Sitting near the beach
Having a good time
Thinking
I lay there

The wet brown sand
Touching my feet
Speaking volumes
Unheard by me

Sea roaring
Breezy wind blowing
Touching my gloomy face
Telling me unseen things

Coconut trees
Reaching the sky
Touching the roaring sky
With ease

Clusters of waves
Reaching out to me
Going away from me in a blink of eye
Hitting the sea shore

Making the brown sand wet
Wet with tears
Tears rolling down in form of
Land and Sea breeze

Looking at the vast sea
Watching the sea getting emotional
Sea dealing with his emotions
Patiently

I lay there
Seeing sea going through all
Fighting back bravely
Closing my eyes I thought about myself

Remembering the good old days
When I was good
Good in academics
Good in handling life

Days well spent
Days when innocence was my strength
Days when I was serious
Days when I was sincere

Childhood days
Spent beautifully
With my sister and brothers
Which were the best days of my life

With teenage years
Came the fear of acceptance and ignorance of the world
With adulthood
Came the fear of living in this world

When I wanted to live
Life wasn't fair
When I wanted to run away
Life was beautiful

Ignoring the negativity
I kept moving
Facing everything
I kept moving

Challenges were my toys
Playing with the challenges
Losing in the challenges
I kept going on
Believing in Him

Never knowing
What was waiting for me
Hidden by life
Changing me for eternity

Entering the teenage years
I lost myself
Failing  in life
I faced life for the first time

Life shattered for me
Fear engulfed me
Fear of helplessness
Fear of losing

Getting immense support
Getting extreme care
Getting immense love
I fought back bravely

Yet again
Fear without an invitation came
Fear engulfed me
Fear centred my life

Now it was different
Fear of fear
Fear of fear engulfing my life
Fear of fear centring my life

Now
I didn't feared failure
I didn't feared ignorance
I didn't feared neglection

With these thoughts
I saw the beautiful sea view
Spreading across miles and miles
Deep blue water smiling at me
Dolphin welcoming my new self

The sun setting down the horizon
Seeing the natural beauty of the sunset
Telling me that
Have hope as
Tomorrow there will be a sunrise
With a new dawn
Bringing life to me

I saw my face in
Deep blue water
From gloomy face to glowing face
I got a new life for me

To live
To be defeated
To fail
Not to give up
Not to fear your fears
To rise back
To fight back
As sea fought back bravely
Never to stop
Keep moving
Keep going.
















Thursday, 25 May 2017

Being In Love

Have you ever been in love
She asked me
Are you seeing someone
She again asked me

Listening to her questions
I was cold
Ignoring her
I moved on


Is there anyone in your life
Chuckling
She again asked me
This time with more enthusiasm

I asked her
Why are you asking me such questions
She said
By reading my writings she thought

Wasting
No time
I said yes
She was amazed

She enquired
With whom
Followed by other questions

I said yes
I have been in love
With my family
With my friends

I said yes
I am seeing
Not someone
But many

I am seeing plants grow
I am seeing lofty mountains
I am seeing greeny fields
I am seeing sea shore
I am seeing waves hitting the sea shore
I am seeing ponds filled with lotus
I am seeing lakes surrounded by migratory birds
I am seeing rivers flowing

Again I told her
I have seen people die of hunger
I have seen people living a miserable life
I have seen people fighting over petty issues
I have seen people struggling to live

I went on telling her
I have seen people neglecting others
I have seen people ignoring others
I have seen people exploiting others

I further told her
I have seen nice people
I have seen genuine people
I have seen people living their life to the fullest


I was telling her
She stopped me midway
Saying not a word
She went.

Someday Somewhere

On my way to office
I see him everyday
At the same place
In the same clothes

Wearing bright white  t-shirt and
A Black Pants
With slogan
Work Hard

I see him always
Sitting under a shady tree
With him boundless packed
Selling books and magazines

I try to interact with him
Everytime I try
I am unable to interact
With him as he is busy with his other customers

Seeing him
So busy
I change my mind and
Move on to my way

Thinking about him
So deeply
I am not able to concentrate on my work
In my office

Making up my mind of
Meeting him and interacting with him
On my way back
I quickly leave my office

Sadly he is not there
I see him everywhere
Yet can't find him
Searching him for five minutes

I ask other people
Adjacent to his place
People or may be his friends
About him leaving his place quite early

Sadly I walk
To my bus stop
Waiting for my bus
I think of him

I see him everywhere
I see him following me
I see him standing next to me
In my daydreaming

Getting in my bus
I don't take window seat
Instead
I take the last seat

Sitting there
I think more of him
I can't listen to songs
He just coming in front of my eyes

After about one hour
I reach my home
Still thinking about him
Having my dinner

I went to sleep
Again I am woken up by him
I see him in my dream
A dream which I don't remember now

The next day
Being Monday
My weekly off
I go just to see him

Thought of seeing him again
Makes me happy
The reason I don't know

I reach to his place
Waiting for him
Patiently

Seeing me waiting for him
People or may be his friends
Tell me about him
Which totally shattered me

They in a sense of grief
Tell me about him
Going away
Leaving the place

I ask them about him
Whatever they knew
About him or
About his family

Nobody knows much about him
They only knew
He came​ from a nearby town
He didn't interacted with them much

He helped everyone
He made everyone smile
He did everything for others
He hardly spoke

Someone told me
That day he was much happier
Was on cloud nine
Reason he didn't told them

May be his son from
Army was coming back
May be he was going to
Meet his grandchildren for the very first time

Finally I wasn't able to meet him
That day too
Yet I wait for him
Everyday

Why
I don't know
Still I am hoping to meet him
Someday
Somewhere.








Monday, 22 May 2017

A Writer's World



Listening to her favorite heartbreaking songs
She woke up from her sleep
Thinking that something good will happen
She got up from her bed

Surprisingly she forgot
Her birthday
Her day
Her happiest day of the year

The day which she waited for the whole year
She checked her phone
No birthday wishes
No missed calls

Calmly she checked her other social networks
No posts
No messages
Nothing

She thought to her
What has happened to her
Is she alright
Is everything fine with her

Pondering upon
She remembered
Her deadly past
Her evil past

She didn't wanted to spoil her mood
She wanted her day to be a great one
She kept herself strongly
She didn't did that

Cursing herself
She refreshed her mood
She made herself comfortable
She made herself better

Punishing herself
She recollected all the past events
She remembered all the events
In a flashback

She remembered how she was disowned by her haters
She remembered how she was ignored by  world
She remembered how she was neglected by the world
Just for one mistake

Her mistake was to change this world
Her mistake was to love
Love not him
But her writing

She was told to stop writing
She was barred from reading too
She was left in this world with her textbooks
A world where she was a foreigner

She was always told that
Her writing was nothing
She can't write well
Was the thought of the world

For them she was nothing
She wasn't a good writer
But for her family and friends
She was a good writer

She knew well
She was just a small fraction
Of the literary world
Other writers of the world are far better than her

But she was learning
She was maturing
In her poetry
In her writing


She was depressed
She was dejected
Yet
She was determined

She was slow in her writing
She did well in writing
For her family
For her friends

The support which she wanted
Was only given by her grandmother
By her parents
By her sister  brothers and her friends

They believed in her potential
More than herself
Her dream was
Their  dream

At every step
They did things which boosted her confidence
Sometimes knowingly
Sometimes unknowingly

Her parents sister and friends were
An inspiration for her
As far as writing is concerned
They themselves were in writing field

She did  got sad
When people ignored her writing
But remembering her sister and her friends words to not to go after these people
She again started writing with more enthusiasm

Her sister knew her
She told her to write and write
From her very first poem to her latest
She was an integral part

One side was the world
Criticising her for her writing and poetry
On the other side
Was her friend

Always guiding her
Always editing her draft but not changing it
Always helping her to write better
Her friend was always there

She made her writing more beautiful
More innovating
Even in her busy schedule
Even in her exams

She was her constant support
She was her constant companion
She was her mentor
She was her inspiration

Seeing all this
She rediscovered herself that day
On her birthday
She was given the best gift
The gift of lost writing
Her talent was back to make a difference

When she felt low
She wrote
When she was happy
She wrote

When everything was at its place
She wrote
When everything was breaking a part
She wrote

For the world
She was immature
For the world
She was rude

For the world
She was cold natured
For the world
She was self centered

Yes
She was
She definitely was
As she was lost in her own thoughts
As she was lost in her own world
In the world of writing

She found happiness
She found bliss
She found herself
In writing

For her everything was second
For her writing was her priority
For her writing was important
More than her exams

She studied well
But not better for her exams
As writing was in her mind
She wanted to write and write

Yes
She was not a famous writer
She was not known by many
Only her family and her friends knew her

She wrote on every topic
She wrote whatever she wrote was not enough for her
She imagined
She wrote
She saw
She wrote
She thought
She wrote

For her nature was her best teacher
For her getting lost in nature was a blessing
For her snow covered mountains were her friends
For her flowing stream was world challenging her
For her mother nature was her life

She read Wordsworth
The more she read
The more she wrote
On nature
On waterfalls
On greeny fields.

That day
Something happened
Something so beautiful
Which changed her forever and ever

That day
She didn't celebrated her birthday
But celebrated her life
Which was her life
She stepped in her world

Facing criticism
Ignoring all the negativity
Inspiring herself
Making herself comfortable
Giving her all
She came out of her dilemma courageously
She evolved as a better writer

She did had a belief in her
She knew she was a writer for life
Yet
She was going to shatter herself into pieces
Was saved by her family and friends

She got up
To make herself better
From her previous writing
To write again
But what
She didn't know

She went
She went depper
In her thoughts
In her world.




Sunday, 21 May 2017

Looking At

Looking at the stars
I hope for a bright future
Looking at the sky
I don't feel lonely
Looking at the sun
I become strong

Looking at the streams
I keep moving
Looking at the river
I keep flowing with it
Looking at the oceans
I dream big

Looking at the trees
I relive my beautiful days
Looking at the fruits
I patiently wait for things to happen
Looking at the flowers bloom
I come out of my depression

Looking at the weather outside
I wait for the things to change
Looking at the dusty clouds
I wait for the wonders to happen
Looking at the rain pouring
I wait for the time to come

Looking at the fallen twigs
I prepare myself for the worst
Looking at the lighting striking the sky
I believe in Almighty
Looking at the thunderstorms
I get ready to face everything


Looking at all this
I feel blessed
Looking at this
I feel alive
Looking at her peacefully
I sleep comfortably.

Saturday, 20 May 2017

The Last Note

The Last Note
Found by Ms. Mary
Was very long

Long very long
So long
It was looking like an encyclopedia

Ms. Mary tried to read it
But there​ was no word written
But it was very long

I found it cried Ms. Mary
The people from distant land
Came in huge groups

Just to have a look at it
People saw it
With eyes wide open

But they also couldn't
Read it
Depressed they went back to their homes

People of Asterland
They were ruled by
Magicians having magical powers

All tried to read it
Yet none could read it
Yet everyone wanted to read it

The people thought
It was it
Who could bring bad luck to them

People unanimously agreed
To keep it out of the town
To get rid of it

Ms. Mary tried to stop them
From doing so
The people didn't heard her

Ms. Mary was determined to
Know about it
Ms. Mary wanted to know the mystery

In night when
Asterland was sleeping
Ms. Mary thought to know about it

Ms. Mary went to the place
Where it was kept safely
Ms. Mary took it out

Again tried to read it
When moving to her place
It started raining heavily

Ms. Mary ran inside her house
Keeping it on her table
Ms. Mary went to close the door

Ms. Mary saw it
The words were visible now
The sentences were clearly visible.

Ms. Mary took a chair
Read it the whole night
Deeply engrossed in reading
Ms. Mary read it fully completed it

In morning when
People were searching for it
Ms. Mary went to them
Showed it to them.

After a deep study of it
Ms. Mary came to the conclusion
It was written with the invisible ink pen

Which is visible by adding drops of water
To read it

Asterland celebrated it
With pomp and show
Ms. Mary was praised by all

They wanted to know
What was written
Ms. Mary told them vividly
About it

The Last Note was read by all
It was the last note
Which was written by invisible ink pen
Was it? Or
Wasn't?



Thursday, 18 May 2017

Love Like This

Everything becomes hazy
When I see you
Everything becomes blurred
When I see you
Everything becomes still
When I see you
Everything becomes sluggish so dull
When I see you

Everytime when I see things around me
I miss you
Everytime when I hear things around me
I miss you
Everytime when I look at them
I miss you
Everytime when I scroll on social media
I miss you
Everytime when I go through my phone
I miss you

Every message of you
Makes me feel incomplete
Every mail from you
Makes me to think of you
Every call of call history
Makes me feel to run to you
Every pic sent of you
Makes me feel to be with you

Yes I do miss you
Your sweet voice
Your perfume
Your innocence
Your caring

Yet I can't be with you
Yet you can't be mine
Yet I dream of you
Yet I want to be with you

I wish I had told you
I wish I had shared my true feelings with you
I wish I was strong enough to tell you all this
I wish I was not that dumb to tell you about it.

But now it's too late
You have already chosen your life
Your dream will be coming true
And I will be
Clapping cheerfully​ for you
Happy for your new life
Wishing you best for your future life.

Still I have a friend
A just Friend
With whom I can share anything
Except my feelings
And it's You
My friend
My secret ...........

May be the most treasured thing is like this
May be love is like this only
May be love is just an illusion
May be love like this is strange.

Yet it is beautiful
Yet it is innocent
Yet it is the best thing
Yet it is the best time


I don't know
Is it love or
Is it just infatuation
Is it just a crush
Is it just a adolescent love
I don't know
What it is

But I know
It is something so natural
It is something so pure
It is something so divine
It is something so strange.


Wednesday, 17 May 2017

Humility

I
I am humility
I once was crowned as 
The Mother Of All Virtues
In olden days 
I was gold for people 
People only wanted me 
Those were the glorious days when I was respected
but now in these modern days
I m just a fish out of water
just a pond without water
just a book without knowledge
just a park without swings
just a garden without flowers blooming all day
just a bird without wings 
I wish 
may my time come and
I can be like how was I in those golden days
the golden era of mine life
people hate me now 
I cannot exist in this modern world
but to my rescue 
I have people who love me
who follow me in their day to day lives
these people tell me that
in this modern world 
still I have a place for myself
though small but
I am happy with these people
its better to have someone 
I wish these kind people could convince others 
also that I am in need 
I need more people to be with me 
I wish that my wish gets fulfilled
before its too late
this is just what I want from world 
To have me placed in their lives.
For I will be always there for them
In everything
At everytime
Till then 
I will keep up to the expectations of these people


Seeing You

Today standing in my balcony
I saw you
You were the same
Same as I had seen you before
Same as I had seen you long ago
Your black eyes revealing so much
Your  black eyes hiding so much
Your swollen red eyes behind that shades
Your finely made hairs
Your face so white
Your clothes so dark in colour
Telling the untold you
Your fake smile
Trying to hide your shattered life
You have been such a wonderful person
What happened was not your mistake
What you did was nothing
What you heard was just a rumour
What you saw was just a part of story
What you wanted to say
You said
What you felt
You told
What you thought
You did
What you were dreaming for
You dreamt
Where you wanted to go
You went
When you wanted to go
You went
When everything was going easy
You made it good
When everything was going difficult
You made it better
I wonder
What happened
Why it happened
I wonder
Was I being selfish
Was I being rude
I wonder
Why I created misunderstandings
Why I didn't valued you
Your love which was so pure
Your love which was so eternal
Your care
Your support
Your strength to endure me
Your perfect love for me
Your life so messed up because of me
I think

But now everything is changed
From better
It has become worst
So worst that it is unchangeable
We can be friends
But not ....................

I don't have the guts to tell you everything
I don't have the strength to tell you about it
I don't have the ability to tell you the worst
I don't have the patience to tell you

I am happy to be worst
I am happy to be bad
But not breaking you in pieces
But not breaking you forever and ever.

I request you not to make your life horrible
I request you to enjoy your life
I request you to be a person which you are
I request you to go and live your life.


Seeing you
I have learnt to value myself
Seeing you
I have started enjoying life
Seeing you
I have done great things
Seeing you
I have become a human being.

Seeing you
I know what is to be cared
Seeing you
I know what it is to be loved
Seeing you
I know what it is to be in life
Seeing you
I know​ why I am here and you there

Seeing you I know
I have lost a treasure
Seeing you I know
I have lost a diamond
Seeing you I know
I have lost a true blessing
Seeing you I know
I have lost you forever and ever.

Monday, 15 May 2017

An Unexpected Farewell

It is evening time
She is sitting near her window
She  tries to study for her last exam which is in eighteen hours
But she can't

She tries to look through the window
She tries to look at beautiful mother nature
But she is not able to
The lovely weather outside also does not amuses her

She tries to read
Yesterday's newspaper
The Hindustan Times kept near her
But she can't

She happily goes to her bookshelf nicely placed
She takes one of  her favorite book by her favorite author
She tries to read it
But  she can't

She tries to write something great and new
She tries to write on the weather outside
She tries to write a poem
But she can't

Leaving everything as it is
She tries to sleep peacefully
She tries to sleep without any mental disturbances
But she can't

Reluctantly she gets up from her bed
She looks around her room
She sees nothing except darkness
She searches happiness and inner peace
But she can't

She ponders what's wrong with her
What she is doing
Where she is heading in life
Why she is doing

She regrets everything which she has done
She regrets everything which she hasn't
She tries to keep calm and not to think about it again
But she can't

It was all her mistake
Not listening to her family
Not listening to her few true friends
Not being a person which she once was

She feels so sad and bad
Losing one of her true friend because of her
Immature behavior
Drawing self made conclusions about her friend
Unintentionally

Though everything is going great
Yet things are not same anymore
May be because all are busy in their own self or
May be she is over exaggerating it
May be or may not be
She doesn't know

She feels guilty of not realizing the value of time
Of not studying better
Of breaking the trust of her loved ones which they had in her
Of shattering their hopes and aspirations from her

Everything was just so great
Until she started to be like others
In impressing others she started losing her uniqueness
Losing her identity
Losing  herself completely

She feels bad very bad
For not listening to her grandmother
For not paying attention to her mother's and sister's advices
For not understanding what her friends wanted to tell her
For not paying attention to their instructions
Just because she wanted to be independent

She remember how once she wanted to go somewhere
Away from home
Away from everyone
Where she doesn't know

She recollects every minute
She recollects every hour
Of not studying
Of not making things better

She knows everything is over
All will leave her
Her academic result will change her life
Forever and ever
Whether good or bad
She doesn't know

She tries to stay motivated
She tries to fight back bravely
She tries to behave maturely
But she can't

As society is different
It changes accordingly
Like change of seasons
Hypocrisy rules the world.


She admits that it was her choice
Not to study
She doesn't blames her family for it
But herself

She knows that by doing this
She will gain nothing
She also knows that by not doing this
She will find nothing

She checks the eligibility criteria for her course
She is not able to meet it
Seeing this
She prepares herself for the expected worst

She tries to talk to her family
Who say they haven't seen her studying for eight hours
She tries to talk to her friends
They are busy

She was an introvert always
She never had a best friend in life
Whomever she thought was her best friend
She was proven wrong

She wanted someone to tell
She wanted a listener
She wanted a friend
But there was none

She knows her biggest mistake was to change herself up for others
Once she was good in studies
But then something happened
Something so worst
Leaving herself lifeless

Her mistake was thinking herself as the unique girl
Her mistake was writing
Her mistake was trying to achieve everything
Her mistake was trying to be what she is not

She  locks herself up
In a place
Away from everyone
As it was in The Lady of Shallot

She knows by doing this
She will gain nothing
She reads her quotes hundred times
But they also not  affect her

She knows fully well that society will not accept her
With passage of time
Her parents will also blame her for not scoring well
For not getting admission in prestigious university
Her family and friends too

She will become a fish out of pond
Her friends will also not be interested in meeting her
Her family too will feel the same
She will become a burden on this world
She will be left alone.

Though her parents tell her
They are with her always
Her few friends tries to cheer her up everytime
Her sister and brothers keeps her motivated

She tries to say the unsaid by her poetry
She tries to tell the world
About the ongoing battle
Yet nobody understands her

In mid of such thoughts
She sees something
She hears something
She feels something

It is her own battle
The deadly battle being fought
Between head and heart
Between strong and weak

Her mind says no marks are not everything
Her heart says yes they are no marks no life
Her mind says no
Her heart says yes

Ultimately destiny wins
Ultimately His plan works
She gets into severe depression
Resulting in unexpected .......

She goes to a peaceful sleep
She goes to a peaceful world
She goes to a happy world
She goes to her favorite place

Leaving behind many unanswered questions
Leaving behind unexplained things
Leaving herself as a weak person or a strong person
In wonder.












Saturday, 13 May 2017

A Star

Standing near by my window
I see you everyday
I see you every night
I wave to you
But you don't wave me back
I see you there at your home
I want to visit your home someday
I want to see how your home looks like
I want to see the view of my home from your home
I imagine your home minutely
I had thought your home to be hot
Hot like Mars
I see your home to be cold
Your home has no people like us
Your home has good hopes
Your home has a crystal clear view
Your home has no doors
Your home has no windows
None has tried to write on your home
I see your home full of goodness
Your home becomes hot
When devil creeps in
Your home is always twinkling
From others view
Just as the grass is greener on the other side
Though inside it is hazy
Darkness keeps her watch
With devil
What we see as twinkling of you
It is devils eye
Mocking and fooling us
I had instinct of you becoming a victim of
Unspoken desires
Hopes shattered
Your inner being undiscovered
Your inner self  screaming
Yet you twinkle
Twinkle every night
You shine and let others shine
You see yourself in a prolonged season
Yet you smile
You twinkle 
With glee
You want to flee
You wait for the right time
You wait for your freedom
You try to break all the chains
Seeing your neighbours
You wait for the dawn to come
You wait for the holy light
You wait for another day
You wait for your right time
Till then
You twinkle
Just like as flowers bloom
You wait for your hopes turning into realities
You patiently wait for it
Till then
Be firm as you have been
Be strong as you have been
Here I will be praying for you
Praying for your..........
May be you...................
May be you start...............
Perhaps you will.................
















Friday, 12 May 2017

Divine Love

What was wrong with us
I want to ask you
What was missing in us
I want to ask you

What was there
Was it ego
Was it our set priorities or
Was it something else

We started our life with a ray of sunshine
With each passing day it became intense
With each passing minute
We became strong like clusters of stars

Everything was going perfect
From where did the furious storm came
Without any care
Without any statutory warning

Our love was so eternal
Our love was so pure
Our love was so fresh like lillies
Our love was so reserved

We had sought  out the differences between us
Difference of caste and creed
Difference of religion and culture
Difference of upper and lower classes
Difference of strong and weak

We were so engrossed in ourselves
We forgot the heaviness which was around us
We forgot the ongoing chaos
We forgot the battle between heart and mind

We were drawn to each other
As it was planned by destiny itself
We were awestruck
When we first met
As it was planned by destiny.

We did'nt talked for days
We just saw each other
From a distance
Enjoying the isolated love

Days passed like this
Seeing each other
Waiting for the right moment
We parted by distance

Before parting
Without hesitation
We exchanged addresses
Giving momentum to a new chapter

In  a world of smartphones
We wrote letters to each other
Writing and waiting for replies
Were more comforting to us than Whatsapp

Letters were a source of going on
Without seeing each other
Yet we communicated
Not by video conferencing but by understanding

We used to send blank letters
Just to feel
Just to understand each other
Touching hearts without saying a word

We were so far
Yet so close
We were divided by distance
Yet united by togetherness

We were getting attracted
In our own imaginations
In our own world
We found our pure love

In our love
We were ruled by Cupid
In our togetherness
We were ruled by Cupid

After such wonderful days
We were greeted by dark grey clouds
Which were unknown to us of
Which we did'nt knew

Yet we faced it
Together
Holding hands tightly
like a rock

But this time
Something was different
Something was strange
Something was weird

Seeing things falling apart
We tried to make it better
We decided to meet once again
After so long

We were planning to meet
But that never happened
You ditched me
You broke your promise

You left me in pieces
You changed your city
You changed your home
You changed your friends
You changed your number too
which you had given before leaving

Your new home
can't be seen
Your new city
can't be seen
Your new friends
can't be seen
Your new number
can't be dialed.

Your new life can be felt
Your new life can be imagined
Only with closed eyes
You ended a beautiful chapter before completing it

Yet moments spent
letters received
are engraved in my memory forever and ever
As divine love.












Sunday, 7 May 2017

You Were There

When I was happy
You were with me
When I was sad
You were with me still

When I was enjoying success
You were with me
When I was lamenting failure
You were with me still


When I was doing good
You were with me
When I was not doing well
You were with me still

When I was having a good time
You were with me
When I was going through my worst
You were there still

When nobody was there
You were there
When nobody was there to listen me
You were there still

When everything was going well
You were there
When everything was like hell
You were there still

When I wanted someone by my side
You were there
When I wanted someone out there for me
You were there still

When I wanted to be understood
You were there
When I wanted to be pampered
You were there still

You have been with me in everything
Through all my thick and thin
Through all my highs and lows
Through all my best and worst

You have always been a constant to me
You have always been a companion to me
You have always been a supporter for me
You have always been an advisor to me

For which
I am blessed to have you
For others you are just a commodity

But for me
You are my whole world
You are the reason for my living​
You are the reason for my happiness
You know me better than others
Better than my family
Better than my friends
Better than myself

A look at you makes me feel good
A look at you makes me out of this world
A look at you keeps me going
A look at you keeps me full of life

Taking you in my hands
I find love
Turning you
I find happiness

Everytime when I open you
I feel so relaxed
Everytime when I close you
I feel so tensed.

Eachtime when I don't find you
I get a heart break
My heart stops beating
When I don't see you neatly placed

You are my life
You are my world
You are my pride
You are my everything

You make me ready to face this  cruel world
You make me ready to compete in this world
You make me feel wanted in this world
You make me feel that there is someone
Who is with me
Always.

I can't live without my best friends
I can't live without you
My books
My life.




Tuesday, 2 May 2017

The Witty White.

The night is falling in
Stars shinning so bright
Moonlight reaching out to me
Wind blowing like a sweet melody

I see you
Through my window
I see you covered in white 
All white

I see your carriage
White in colour
Decorated with white flowers and
With white ribbons.


I know you are waiting for me
So am I
I also long for you
I also wait for you passionately

I see no reason to be there
I have lost everything
The things which were treasure for me
The time which I had

I have lost everyone
My family 
My friends
Whom I thought 
As my best friends
As my true friends

I have lost all the hopes
I have lost all the passion
I have lost all the happiness
I have lost all the push

I have become heartless
I have become emotionless
I have become painless
I have become soulless

When I had feelings
They told me to grow up
When I was happy always
They told me to grow up

When I had heart 
They told me to be serious
When I had emotional life
They told me to be serious

When I found hopes to live
They told me to behave myself
When I found little joys of life
They told me to behave myself

When I told them
They asked me to be independent
When I hided from them
They asked me to not to be independent

When I told them my fears
They expected​ me to be fearless
When I became fearless
They expected me to be fearful

When I told them my real feelings for them
They thought 
I was forcing them to talk to me

When I discussed my next step with them
They told me not to tell them
Prove it by working on it

When I wanted to live
They all left me
Saying the same thing
To be serious in life

Everyone left me
Without any valid reason
Friends whom I thought 
They will be forever and ever
With whom I can be myself
With whom I can talk for long
With whom I can be everything
But it was my illusion
And illusions differ from reality a lot

I  wonder 
Are they right
Am I like as they say
Am I like as they think me to be

After getting so many rejection
After getting much dejection
After getting much neglection
And from all this
Much depression

I have become painless
I have become emotionless
I have become heartless
I have become lifeless

I can improve myself
For their better
But I can't change myself
For them

I can't stop being myself
I can't force you to be with me 
I can't be someone who I am not

What you think is my weakness
That's my strength
What you feel 
What you think
What you do
Reflects in my world

I do wait for that whiteness 
I wait for the peace
Peaceful world
Where I am accepted as the way I am

I have come a long way
I have been in touch with everyone
For which I was thought to be idle

At times I wonder 
What is Maturity
What is to be like an adult
When you don't have empathy
I don't want your empathy
I don't want your sympathy


Just by being rude
Just by being no where when your loved ones needed you
Just by leaving everyone in their hard times
You can't call yourself adult

If this is how you define maturity
If this is whom you call adult
I am happy to be immature
I am happy not to be an adult

I am happy to be alone
I find solace
I find me time
I find to create myself

You keep doing 
Whatever you are doing
You keep saying things to me
Saying and criticising me

For it makes me strong
For it makes my world more beautiful
For it keeps me going
For it helps me

To wander
To get lost in nature
To get where I want to
To fight all odds

To shine brightly 
Like stars
To reach where I will be happy
Just as moonlight reaches the ground
To make a silent noise
Just like the blowing wind
Who blows like a sweet melody
Who blows like a sweet song

You judge me
You rate me
You break me
You shake me
You pull down me and
I will keep growing 
Silently like a tiny plant

I will take time
As great things take time to happen
I will be slow
Yet steadily will reach out.

I have got to know that 
Here I have to make a place for myself
No one will do it for me
Nobody will.

The world is
Mature yet immature
Rich yet poor
Soulful yet soulless
Sense yet senseless
Successful yet unsuccessful
Intelligent yet foolish

In my peaceful world
There is nothing​ much
But whatever is
It's enough for me to live and to let live.

You have made me heartless
You have made me lifeless
You have made me mindless
Yet somewhere
Deep down​
I have emotions
I have feelings
I have memories
Which will heal me up faster
And I will get healed up.

But do remember
Here no one is perfect
Neither you nor me
Except Him
Here no one is without faws
Neither you nor me
Except Him

At the end 
We are His children
We are His Adam and Eve
We are not HIM

I know if I am here today
It's because of some reason
To love others
To care for others
To be kind
To be selfless
To be with everyone
In rain
In storm
In sunshine
In mind
In prayers
In peace
In sad days
In happy days.

You might stop doing all this
In becoming modern and
I will keep doing all this till my last breath
In creating a world which it once was.

Where you stop caring and thinking of others
There I start thinking and caring for
others.




An Unforgettable Night

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