Thursday, 6 April 2017

An Uninvited Guest

It was a chilly morning
Yet it was looking like night.
The weather was very disturbed
Outside my home I  could see snowfall
Roads coverd with snow
Houses covered with snow
My car coverd with snow
Even my little garden was covered with snow
Colourful and beautiful flowers covered with snow
No person was seen
There was total silence
Only the nature could be felt
Chilly wind was blowing
Even my pet dog was shivering
He was also silent
No barking was heard
I was sitting near fire
Reading a book
 Having hot chocolate in my special mug.
I was teriffied as it was utmost silence everywhere
Only whispeers of leaves could be heard
As if trying to talk to each other.
I was so scared that I couldn't concentrate
I was going for a quick nap
I could feel that there was someone
at the door
 I went to my door
I was taking heavy steps
My heartbeat almost stopped in fear
I opened the door with a torch in my hand
But none could be seen
I thought it might be wind
 I closed my door and went to sleep
To be woken up by the repeated banging on door
I went to see who was there at the door
Hearing the sobs and howling
I got enveloped in fear
From head to toe
Trying to be calm
I opened my door with fear running down my spine
I saw him
A person in his mid twenties
Holding a photo so near to his heart
As if embracing it with intensity
Hardly I had opened my door
He broke down in front of me
Not knowing what to do
I let him inside my room
I offered him a warm cup of coffee
Which he drank it in a gulp
I was quite astonished to see this
I tried to ask him about his whereabouts
Why he was crying so much
I saw him closely
His swollen eyes telling volumes
His tears rolling down from his eyes
Like waves of sea
Hitting the sea shore
Gearing up some courage
I asked him what was the matter
Why was he crying so much
Why was he looking so very sad
After some time
After asking several times
He told me about his lost love
How he is trying to  live without his love of life
Who was the most important in his life
After being in eight years of relationship
His relationship ended in such natural way
I didn't knew
What to say
How to make him comfortable
What to do
How to react
Calming him down
I told him
Not to cry
Not to lament
I said
You loved her so much
You have done your best to be with her for life
You loved your beloved very much
You loved her more than yourself
It was not your mistake
It was not her mistake
It was just destiny playing with you
You were just a victim of the destiny
You met her for a reason
It was just His plan to make you familiar
It is not your mistake my friend
You were just living your life going through all this.
It was just a part of your life which was meant to be
If she is in your destiny
She will come back to you
One day
Until then
You should stop crying
You can just wait
You can just hope for the best
If you and her is in His plans
You will surely meet her
Just have believe in Him and His plans
Keep Going
Doing good
You will get her
You will meet her
Someday.


Wednesday, 5 April 2017

I Was There

When I needed you 
you were not there 
When you needed me
I was there


When I was in pain
you were not there
when you were in pain
I was there


When I was going through tough times
you were not there
when you were going through same
I was there


When I was struggling with 
you were not there
when you were struggling
I was there


When I was having no-one
you were not there
when you were having no-one
I was there


When I wanted your care
you were not there
when you wanted care
I was there



When  I was feeling low
you were not there
when you were feeling low
I was there


When I was in a bad mood
you were not there
when you were in bad mood
I was there


When I was sad 
you were not there
when you were sad
I was there


When I was falling down
you were not there
When you were falling down
I was there


When I wanted to tell you 
you were not there
when you wanted to tell
I was there


When I was neglected
you were not there
when you were neglected
I was there



When I was going through storms
you were not there
when you were going through storms
I was there


When I needed your protection
you were not there
when you needed protection
I was there


When you were in success
I was there
when you were in failure
I was there


When I was in success
you were there
When I was in failure
you were not there



But I thank you 
for all this
Because it has made me
What I am today


I have discovered the best in me
I have got to know who are my real friends
I have got to know about the people who will be there for me.
I have got hundred reason to smile 

Who love me
Who care for me
Who accept me as the way I am
Who don't change as per their moods.

I assure you of one thing
that I will always be there 
for you
in rain 
in sunshine
in snow
in wind
in storm
in every situation.

With and Without you.

Life seems apart without you
You were the reason for my smile
You were the reason for my joy
You were the reason for my happiness
You were the reason for my life

I see your messages hundred times
I re read your messages thousand times
I  see the pictures clicked with you million times
I see the emails from you for the billionth time

I remember how we used to talk daily
Without getting bored
Without running off topics
How nights turned to mornings
Talking to you
How stars turned to sunrise
Chatting with you

I don't hear from you anymore
I don't see you anymore
I don't meet you often
I don't converse with you

Yet you are always in my mind
Yet you are always in my heart
Yet you are always in my memories
Yet you are always in my dreams

You were so near to me
Yet so far
You were lost in your world
Yet so in my mind

At times I ponder was I so bad
What went wrong
What blunders I created
What wrong I did

Being my self was my mistake
Being so much into you was my mistake
Being open to you was my mistake
Which you called immaturity.

Yes if saying what you feel is immaturity
So yes I am
Yes if sharing your true feelings is immaturity
So yes I am
Yes if thinking what others feel about me is immaturity
So yes I am
Yes if becoming sad is immaturity
So yes I am
Yes if finding million reasons to laugh all day is immaturity
So yes I am
Yes if being child at heart is immaturity
So yes I am
Yes if not being serious and reserved at all times is immaturity
So yes I am
Yes if trying to escape from realities is immaturity
So yes I am
Yes if trying to make others smile and happy is immaturity
So yes I am
Yes if caring for others is immaturity
So yes I am
Yes if doing little things in life which become biggest things is immaturity
So yes I am
Yes if being there for others when they need you the most is immaturity
So yes I am
Yes if living for others is immaturity
So yes I am.

I don't have complaints about that
I don't regret for being like this
I don't feel sad for being my self
I don't get disheartened by anything.

Because I know
It takes a lot of courage to be yourself
It takes a lot of patience to face criticism
It's not easy to be you in front of this world.

Where you will be judged in everything in everyway.
Where you will be rated by people
Where you will be ignored by people
Where you will be neglected by people
Where people think that you are forcing them to talk to you
Where people will try to shake you
Where people will try to break you at every time.

I do miss you
But looking at my loved ones
I try to move on
I try to come out of my dilemma.

I will come out of everything
I have my support of my family
I have my friends who are with me
I have my support systems

I have strength
I have to be strong
Not for me
But for my near and loved ones
For their smile
For their happiness.









Life In A Coaching Class

Seems like yesterday When for the first time I was going to step into a new world A world where I hardly knew anyone I was so terrifie...