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While sitting lost in my own world
Trying my level best to concentrate
On the ongoing lecture
I sat there
Depressed sad
For the unknown reasons

Introspecting myself evaluating myself
I look closely inside my heart
Eyes closed burnt dreams
All I could see was 'wide sea'
I sat there tears rolling down my cheeks
Making my eyes swollen
Leaving me in agony

Hurriedly I walked out of the
Ongoing lecture
For I could no longer
Tolerate my moist eyes
Waiting for their freedom

Moving away from the people
In search of a place
Passing through the long road
Pastured greeny fields
Flowers smiling at me
Seeing my gloomy face

I cry like a little baby
My eyes hurt
In pain
I know things will be good again
But when I ask You

Whenever someone asks me
Are you okay
Without wasting a second
I blur out only one word
Yes I am okay

For I don't want to become a burden
On them
Again
I don't want to be called an attention seeker
No more! No more!

It was not their mistake
Flaws are in me
Evil I am
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An Unwritten Page From Diary

Life has come to a standstillI don't know where I am going on in my life I have lost all my senses Am I in love? or Is It depression With these thoughts in mind I leave my bed which I don't want to leave But I have to I get up to get ready for my office  Without realizing the day being a Sunday I reach my office Thinking that I am on time atleast today I smile I see no one  Just two colleagues  They smile at me  They politely ask me  Am I fine Am I okay Without answering there questions I walk to my cubicle With thoughts running in my mind thoughts which are flowing like water I don't  feel like doing any work  I try not to think negative I try to do my work checking my email box  just to see If my most trustworthy friend has replied to my email or not Hearing footsteps of my colleagues I quickly open a new tab  When they go back to their cubicles I look around my office The desks of my colleagues I see them minutely for the first time Some have kept the photographs of their grandparents restoring the fa…

New Girl In Town

Ten years ago
In the scorching heat
Of July month
I met her for the first time

I saw her from a distance
My heart wanted to approach her
But Oh my introvert nature
Stopped me

She was there standing
In neat tidy uniform
Her eyes were beautiful
Her black eyes were shinning bright
Her face was glowing
Her hair were tied up
Her rainbow smile

She was having backpack on her shoulders
Her plait tied up with black rubber band
She entered the room with
Happiness flowing with every step

Surprisingly she came near to me
Looked and went away
Leaving behind
Her million dollar smile
Stamped in my heart forever

After day or two
I interacted with her
She left me speechless
Her way of talking filled me with joy

For years
I was alone without much friends
Suddenly I got a new friend
Unexpectedly we became friends

Embarking a new journey
Of life-long friendship
Of the purest form of love

We exchanged numbers
Within weeks
We were good friends

She made me understand the meaning of
Friendship
Being friends…

Nomad

On a lonely sunday morning
I wake up early to meet you
For the one last time
Before I am carried away

I check my little letter box
To see if there is any letter from you
Nay it's not
Wait for some time
I console my little heart

I force myself to
Have a perfect mug of coffee
In my favourite coffee mug
For one last time

Nothing makes me happy
Today books too fail to understand me
My pen too is shaking
Weather is also helpless

I am a lost soul
I curse myself for all the regrets
I look around for the things
To harm myself again

One year back
I wanted to run away
Sadly was stopped
Eleven years back
I wanted to kill myself
Unfortunately was saved

I wasn't close to anybody
All my life
I was alone
I never had anyone

Friends I never had
Family I wasn't close to
Happiness lied in me
Loneliness I loved

Introvert I was always
I never shared my problems my feelings with
anyone
I wasn't like others
Sharing their problems
I don't want to be a burden on you all
I hate sharing my …

An Ode To Truth

O you mighty spirit
Embrace me tightly
With all your great power
Accept me with all my flaws
Flaws which turned to sins
Take me with you
Where there is 'peace'
Allow me once to stay at your place
Believe me I won't change my place
Everafter
I am in love with your place
I want to speak my heart to you
As I don't have none
I trust in you
I believe in you
You are the one
For whom
I wait for
I long for
Come soon
Bring all my sorrows to an end
Welcome me wholeheartedly
As I make arrangements silently
To reach your place
Soon
Here I come
To enjoy the ultimate truth of life
I look at you
I surrender myself to you
With happiness
Take my soul with you
Take my immature heart and mind with you
Take everything from me
I am happy to be in your home
Waiting for truth to take me
Away from this world
Away from my sinful world
I am waiting for you with a smile
To start a new journey to eternity.


Times

O you
Why don't you leave me
I hate you
Whenever I try to go away from you
You come to me
Saving me again
In some form or the other

O you
What should I do to make you understand
Everything is over
I have lost everything
I don't have nothing

O you
How should I tell you that
I never had anyone
I have no friends to share
My family doesn't understand it
I am an introvert and will always be

For me it's difficult to share my problems
Moreover I never had anyone too
It's my mistake that
I forgot that they are much busy

Nothing is left
I can't do much
Everything is done
Everything is over for me
I can't bear all this now

It pains my heart
To see my shattered life
I accept that it is because of me
That's why I can't be more patient

Yes I am not that strong
Like my grandmother
Like my mother
Like my sister
I don't know why I am not

I am not that "mature"
I am an "attention seeker"
I am an "immature" person
I am a "cryin…

One Last Time

The sun is glowing
The stream is flowing
The wind is blowing
The rainbow is smiling
The birds are resting

The flowers are blooming
Some yellow
Some golden
Some white

The blooming flowers are dancing
sunflowers
lillies
roses to name a few

I see him
I see him happy
I see him beaming with joy
I see a small kid with dreams so big

I walk on the grass
The due drops falling
Making the green grass
Glitter

I see her
I see her smile
Seeing the love of her life
Sitting with him making
her eyes gleam with joy

I see a group of friends
Chuckling laughing
Spending the best time
Making wonderful memories to cherish

I see working people
Carrying heavy bags
With a heavy heart
Tired too tired to love life

I see ducks swimming
Sweet little ducks in a line
Followed by the mum duck
Quacking seeing me
I guess

Turning around
I see frogs watching me
Silently
From a little distance

I see grandpa and grandma
Living their life once again
Playing with their grandchildren
Being a kid again

Far away behind those
L…