Friday, 18 August 2017

Right or Wrong?

It is my mistake that I thought you as my best friend

It is my mistake that I want to be your best friend

It is my mistake that I give so much importance to you

It is my mistake that I keep on ignoring my intuition

It is my mistake that I don't listen to my conscience

It is my mistake that I thought that I too can have a best friend

It is my mistake that I thought everyone is my best friend

It is my mistake that I try to be your best friend

It is my mistake that I am busy thinking about you

It is my mistake that seeing you I feel happy

It is my mistake that meeting you makes me elated

It is my mistake that I have feelings  for you

It is my mistake that I put efforts to be in your life

It is my mistake that I cry missing you

It is my mistake that I over analyse everything

It is my mistake that reading your texts emails makes me to never let you go

It is my mistake that you have only me as your best friend

It is my mistake that I forgot you have many friends better than me

It is my mistake that I miss the days spent with you

It is my mistake that I long to meet you

It is my mistake that I want to tell you about me

It is my mistake that I am not like others

It is my mistake that I can't be like others

It is my mistake that I can't afford to lose people

It is my mistake that I get emotionally attached with anyone easily

It is my mistake that I can't force people to be a best friend to me

It is my mistake that I fear losing people in my life

It is my mistake that I don't have anyone except you

It is my mistake that I don't know how to be a best friend

It is my mistake that I don't speak much

It is my mistake that I prefer listening to speaking

It is my mistake that I can't insult people to be a best friend

It is my mistake that I don't have much topics to talk on

It is my mistake that I am too shy

It is my mistake that I don't know how to make a best friend

It is my mistake that I don't share everything

It is my mistake that I don't like abusing people

It is my mistake that I don't have anyone to tag on social media

It is my mistake that I understand people

It is my mistake that I haven't been a best friend to anyone

It is my mistake that I don't know what to talk

It is my mistake that I worry for others problem

It is my mistake that I try to make everyone happy

It is my mistake that I try not to make anyone sad because of my words

It is my mistake that I am polite with everyone

It is my mistake that I believe in true friendship

It is my mistake that I can't afford to be a fake friend

It is my mistake that I want everyone to be my best friend

It is my mistake that I don't know the meaning of friendship

It is my mistake that I have failed in being a best friend

It is my mistake that I have terribly failed in making friends

It is my mistake that I have failed miserably when it comes to Friendship

It is my mistake that I don't know how to be a best friend

It is my mistake that I take everything seriously when it comes to make others happy

It is my mistake that I haven't been able to take qualities of friendship from family

It is my mistake that I think of others more than myself

It is my mistake that I am in habit of making sacrifices just to see others happy

It is my mistake that I am not yet mature enough to understand people and life

It is my mistake that I am close to none either in family or outside family

It is my mistake that I keep on doing things for everyone

It is my mistake that I don't keep grudges against anyone

It is my mistake that I can be a sweet a loving friend but can never be a best friend

It is my mistake that I fear losing people

It is my mistake that I believe in complete forgiveness

It is my mistake that I can't hate people for a reason

It is my mistake that I can't stop loving people for no reason

It is my mistake that I can't share my problems with anyone

It is my mistake that I am emotionally weak but strong enough to make others feel special

It is my mistake that I think everything

It is my mistake that at times I get irritated easily

It is my mistake that I try my level best to fit in

It is my mistake that I don't talk to many people but with whom I talk I fall for them easily

It is my mistake that I search for inspiring people

It is my mistake that I don't open up with people easily as either I lose people or myself

It is my mistake that I at times try to copy others not completely but in a way that I get emotionaly attached with them

It is my mistake that I am a very reserved kind of person

It is my mistake that I miss the old golden days

It is my mistake that I concentrate more on other things than being a best friend

It is my mistake that I try to meet people but fail on their priority list

It is my mistake that I have done nothing great for anyone

It is my mistake that I have none except HIM

It is my mistake that I believe in God as it is something which has been taught to me by maternal grandmother

It is my mistake that I can't see people struggling

It is my mistake that I am nothing to anyone especially when it comes to friends

It is my mistake that people think that I am forcing them to talk to them

It is my mistake that I can't talk about things which people like

It is my mistake that I don't have much pictures with family and friends

It is my mistake that I get serious everytime I meet someone

It is my mistake that I don't want to be with people yet I want to be

It is my mistake that I think of the things which can never happen

It is my mistake that I want to stay connected with everyone

It is my mistake that I become a clown for people when I am just sharing

It is my mistake that people laugh at me yet I forget everything

It is my mistake that I fail at expressing

It is my mistake that I do so much for people at times to answer them why I do for them

It is my mistake that I try to find HIM in every other person

It is my mistake that I can't stop caring for others

It is my mistake that I can't leave them in problems

It is my mistake that I go out of the way to help others

It is my mistake that I have lost so much in life

It is my mistake that I have lost my friends whom I thought we were best friends

It is my mistake that I forget that everyone can't be my best friend

It is my mistake that I still prefer hand written notes and letters to messages

It is my mistake that I am writing all this without having any clue why I am writing this

It is my mistake that I wasted so much time in writing this

It is my mistake that I have nothing with me

It is my mistake that I apologise often in order to save relations

It is my mistake that I am writing this at the time when I should be sleeping


Am I doing right
Am I doing wrong

Wednesday, 9 August 2017

The Last Goodbye

Having lost everything
Everyone 
Her family
Her friends

Everything 
Her hopes
Her dreams
Her talent

She sat in a park
Alone 
Wanted to go home but she can't
Wanted to go to her best and true friends house but can't

Looking here and there
Looking left and right
Looking for her life
She cried and cried

Depressed she was forever
Sad she was always
Sluggish she was always
Heartless she was never

Thinking of none
She went away from everyone
She ran away from everything
Her house Her home Her life

Things were getting worse for her
Love was no where to be found
Care was no where to be found
Peace was no where to be found

She left everything which was her life one time
Reading 
Writing
Expressing herself through her words

Researching 
Analysing
Introspecting
Herself her life she drowned in pond of depression

Cutting away herself from every way
By which people could contact her
For showing their fake love and care
Trying to be her friend

Going away from her life
Her haunting life
She left the world 
In search of a best friend

Searching for her best friend 
In everyone
Everyday know
Everyplace
Everyday

Sharing her problems
Sharing her thoughts
Was her mistake
Her biggest regret

Saying nothing
Complaining about nothing
Thanking everyone 
She left to go for
Her last journey

Wishing everyone 
Best of everything
Best of luck 
She bide her last goodbye

With a wish 
Next time she will
Find her best friend
Her true friend in her life. 

Untitled Love

Four years ago
I met you in a distant land
Happiest was I meeting you
Elated was I seeing you
You looked handsome
With red shirt describing your feelings
That day you didn't say anything
Those three magical words were
Said by your lucky red shirt
Yes it was your lucky shirt
But now it's mine too
I was better but not perfect
Yet I saw your black eyes following me
Like moon following our car
Conversations were sweet
I saw you in your best
You saw me in my worst
Though I didn't hear I Love You
But I heard the voice of your heart
Screaming so loudly
That was perhaps the best day of my life
May be of our life
Our not so romantic life but
Our innocent life

Friendship

Friendship is being there for each other
Friendship is helping each other
Friendship is caring for each other
Friendship is walking with each other
Friendship is protecting each other
Friendship is loving each other
Friendship is respecting each other
Friendship is living in each other's heart
Friendship is staying by each other's side
Friendship is guiding each other
Friendship is ignoring all the flaws of each other
Friendship is bringing happiness in each other's life
Friendship is taking all the darkness away from each other"s life
Friendship is magic
Friendship is much more than posting pictures on social media
Friendship is accepting each other
Friendship is spreading joy and happiness in each other's life
Friendship is loving each other at everytime
Friendship is nothing if it's with benefits
Friendship is innocent
Friendship is much more than Friendship bands
Friendship is enjoying  each other's company
Friendship is guiding each other what is right and what is wrong
Friendship is understanding each other
Friendship is making each other's day special
Friendship is not meeting for days and months but still nothing changes
Friendship is having a bond which never gets weak but gets Strong day by day
Friendship is having not many friends but only one friend who will never leave you
Friendship is same in sunshine
Friendship is same in rain
Friendship is same in triumph
Friendship is same in disaster
Friendship is same  in success
Friendship is same in failure
Friendship is same in everything
Friendship is pure
Friendship is innocent
Friendship is in words
Friendship is in actions
Friendship is proving your words in actions
Friendship can't be forced
Friendship can't be pushed
Friendship is one of the best gifts of the world
Friendship is being with your friend when they are need
Listening to them
Keeping their secrets secret no matter what
Friendship is making them better
Friendship is motivating your friends
Friendship is encouraging your friends
Friendship is appreciating your friends
Friendship is giving them honest views when they ask you
Friendship is beyond words
Friendship is unique in its own way

Saturday, 5 August 2017

An Adieu To You



Thank you for being with me
In every situation
In every ups and downs

Thank you for being my constant support
When nobody was there
When I had none

Thank you for being with me for so many years
For giving me a reason to live
For getting me back from every situation

Thank you for your efforts to
Make me smile
Everytime when I felt low

Thank you for making my life worth living
For being the best friends
For being unique

Thank you for giving me you
To tell you things which I can't tell anyone in this world
To be a good listener to me

Thank you for being with me all these years
Before I leave you
I thank you

I am not capable of you
But there are other people
Around you who are much better than me

Whatever may happen
You will always have a special place in my heart
My friend

I have stopped being familiar with your counterpart too
But I still now love your best friend
You both will always be with me

I am putting down my thoughts
My pen
Closing up with a smile and happy face

I will always miss you
My dear
I am not enough capable of you

Be happy
Be powerful
Be a guiding light to others
Keep going
Keep doing

Will meet you ......

Monday, 31 July 2017

Lost



O you where have you gone
Leaving me behind
With my depression

O you please come back to me
I assure you I won't disturb you
I won't

O you why have you left me
I have none
Except you

O you who knows very well that
I don't have anyone to share my feelings with
No family No friends

O you who is aware of the fact that
I have lost my best friend on 21st
I have lost everybody

Whom I thought was my best friend
Is not my best friend

I have lost everything
I have failed in life
At everything

Academically
Emotionally
Psychologically

O you please stay a little longer with me
I have failed
As a writer
As a daughter
As a sister
As a friend

Neither I have anyone
Nor I want to have
Someone

I want to live my life alone
Without any people
Without any problems

I don't have much with me
Just some books who are with me when
Nobody is there

O you don't be so rude
I know I can't be like others
I am unique

I can't live without you
I want you back in my life
I want that peace again in my life

I want innocence back
I want happiness back
I want purity back

I want the old me back
I want the serious me back
I want everything about me back

I have lost myself
I am nothing
I can be sweet caring lovely but can't be a true friend to anyone

You know I have stopped talking to anybody
I have stopped reading
U have stopped writing

I have stopped enjoying
I have stopped living
My life

I don't talk to anybody
I don't share my feelings
I don't share my problems

With anyone
Neither family nor friends
I don't do it anymore

You know very well that
Years ago
I was the most serious and reserved kind of person

I don't know what happened to me
After mid school
I started sharing things

The biggest blunder done by me
I forgot that in this world
Nobody actually cares for you

None neither your family nor your friends
I should have listened it to you
Copying others I lost myself completely

I got my best friend
After years lost her as my best friend
I came in between two besties

After some more years
I met her thought I have found my
Best friend

Again a mistake
Again came in between two besties
It was my mistake of

Finding a best friend for me
A best friend whom I can never have
You see I have again failed in Friendships too

I can't be rude to anyone
I can't insult people
I can't stop caring for them

O you please come back
Fill my world with nothing
But the innocence and purity

I am waiting for you
I am waiting for your knock at my door

With a hope that
You will come
Today or tomorrow

Thursday, 13 July 2017

Thank You

I am thankful to you for neglecting me
I am thankful to you for ignoring me
I am thankful to you for rejecting me
I am thankful to you for disowning me
I am thankful to you for leaving me
I am thankful to you for letting me go
I am thankful to you for giving me scars
I am thankful to you for making me your last priority
I am thankful to you for never replying to me
I am thankful to you for never calling me
I am thankful to you for never giving me freedom
I am thankful to you for never letting me do what I wanted
I am thankful to you for never asking me anything
I am thankful to you for never loving me
I am thankful to you for never bringing my favourite book
I am thankful to you for never supporting me
I am thankful to you for never encouraging me
I am thankful to you for never motivating me
I am thankful to you for never allowing me to have friends
I am thankful to you for never letting be myself
I am thankful to you for making me what I am today
I am thankful to you for making me different from rest of the crowd
I am thankful to you for making me independent
I am thankful to you for making me a rational person
I am thankful to you for making me a logical thinker
I am thankful to you for making me a heartless creature
I am thankful to you for making me a busy person where there is no place for emotions
I am thankful to you for making myself support system
I am thankful to you for making me self caring
I am thankful to you for making me bold to celebrate all my victories alone
I am thankful to you for making me a unique girl
I am thankful to you for making me a self introspector
I am thankful to you for making me proud of myself
I am thankful to you for making me ready to take my decisions alone
I am thankful to you for making me learn from my mistakes
I am thankful to you for making me enough capable to know where I am going wrong
I am thankful to you for making me ready to enjoy without friends
I am thankful to you for making me feel good everytime I fell or failed
I am thankful to you for making me face the harsh truths of life
I am thankful to you for making me confident of living life alone
I am thankful to you for making me understand there is no true friend in life
I am thankful to you for not being there when I needed you the most
I am thankful to you for making me fight with this world alone
I am thankful to you for telling me never to have hopes and expectations from anyone
I am thankful to you for making me understand those who want to stay will stay
I am thankful to you for making me understand those who want to stay connected will be connected irrespective of being busy
I am thankful to you for making me understand that priority is a big thing
I am thankful to you for giving me ingredients to survive in this world alone happy and glee

Right or Wrong?

It is my mistake that I thought you as my best friend It is my mistake that I want to be your best friend It is my mistake that I give ...